I don’t mean disappointed that it doesn’t do what you tell it or that you find it unattractive something, but something other…
I bought and sold a few synths before settling on a Cobalt 8 (keys) when it first came out and bought a slew of synths since which I find more interesting, but that is the one I have spent the most time with, probably a few hours a day since buying it until… well around December, I just stopped touching the thing and when I see it sitting there on the desk I get this pang of shame and sadness. Not sure what happened, could be that I started cooking my mind on cannabis concentrates almost every night around then (which I stopped a few weeks ago as I finally realized it was throwing my mornings off kilter) but still I can’t bring myself to touch the thing. I have gotten back to touching my other synths but that poor Cobalt 8 sits there lonely on the desk like some bastard step child. I don’t have a clue what broke inside my head that brought me to such a place, but I would like to understand; and wonder if anyone else has a similar melancholia related to a particular synth and if so, have you come to make peace with it?