Yes, I still breathe.
Who’s all still here?
I’ve been thinking about and missing all of you wonderful amazing people here lately.
My life is completely upended. I’ve been through the darkest days I’ve ever seen. They come and go. I’m still not out of the fires and they may not be smoldering for some time yet.
I’m wounded and can’t remove the twisting blade without harming those who are innocent.
I’m learning to heal while still being harmed. I’m safe though and things are improving very slowly.
Don’t feel bad for me. This is the only way out.
It will lead to things that couldn’t have been possible before. I will find peace eventually, and I couldn’t have had that without pain. Pain regardless, so I chose the pain that leads to a better place. A blessing in disguise, I still choose to believe.
I still have all of my music gear and have even started making music again some.
It’s going to take me a long time to catch up here. So be patient if I take a long time to reply, but I think I’m back now.
I won’t be all doom and gloom. A lot of me is still the same and nothing shy of death can shake my core.
I missed you. 
