Continuing the discussion from Family, work and elektron:
I just had to hear from others how they manage with the feelings related to this important topic. I saw someone post about how they had accepted that they wouldn’t make a living out of their music because of family/renovations etc. This made me really sad, because I’m in that state of mind atm. I have realized that my naive dreams won’t become true in this life time. And because I believe this life is my only shot (when I go - I go back to the eternal darkness) it makes it hard to grasp this realization.
I recently became a father and have been struggling with the fact that I do not have the time for music in a meaningful way. Don’t get me wrong, I love being a father. But I do not love loosing what is (was?) my big passion.
I do not know about how others feel about their music making. But am I wrong to think that most of us have dreams of some kind of acknowledgement/appreciation for our music?
I’ve always had this naive dream in the back of my mind with my music making. Its been some kind of motivation when I’ve struggled with my music. And that is to reach some kind of small “fame”, be it if only someone said that my music made a difference for them, that they knew what I meant or the feeling they got through my music.
Writing about it makes it clear that the ego is one hell of a drug. But still, without my ego I wouldn’t be more than another tree in the forest.
What was your moment when you realized that you wouldn’t reach your musical dreams in your life time? How did you get over the feeling of dispair when realizing it?