Since I made some prototypes that I found good as a jumping off point, I took a step back and wrote down some goals with the project.
The overall goal was to finish a song that I could release during the year, that I would be happy with. I have struggled to finish music during the 20-ish years ive been composing, mostly due to fear of failure, perfectionism, unable to take decisions, the belief that something im working on could be made great as opposed to good if I only worked on it some more. Last song I finished took me 8-9 years. And that resulted in a 5 min chiptune song.
I wanted to use my more professional way of working (I work as a UX designer in the medical field) - to find answers to all questions regarding purpose. What is the goal? What is most important? How do I find out the answer if I don’t know it?
This was my document where some of these questions were answered:
The goal
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Create music/art that I wish existed (but doesn’t) - “What if Bell Witch, Deathspell Omega and Sunn O))) made a record together, but with analog synths and spaced out effects? Where some parts would be composed in a major key to the extent that a post rock feeling would emerge? Crescendos!”
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What scenes or feelings are Im trying to represent? And what are other good examples of such feelings/moments I want to find? Bell Witch Mirror Reaper - the triumphant and sad riff? Epic sadness? Sunn 0))) Pyroclasts, shrouded in distorted clouds? what does distortion mean to me? is something broken? what does a distorted chord mean? what does it mean if I add a “weird” voicing? What does a reverb mean? Is it meant to know this?
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The goal is not to mimic what is “great” but to calibrate the internal to identify “greatness”. “So we better can make the thousand of choices that might ultimately lead to our own great work.” -Rick Rubin