Not to cast aspersions on your abilities, but I’d recommend on getting right into the enjoyment and appreciation to the machine immediately. Explore the machine from the large downward to the microscopic.
Play with the already constructed patterns > make fresh patterns out of the kit presets > make a kit out of the already constructed presets(and develop your own perf macros) > and then start designing your own sounds from scratch.
It’s an affront to a person’s ego to not create everything- but it’s an awesome synth, but requires determination to get there. As long as you can immediately recognize the rewarding experience, you won’t be just another one that gets frustrated and sells it