I started tinkering with music production in 2005 after a friend showed me Logic. Since then I’ve had lots of ambitious beginnings and just as many moments where I’d give up and quit due to frustration with the process and my inability to finish 99.9% of the music I started. My stints would last between two and six months, with gaps between them ranging from months to years.
It’s now been 20 years since 2005 and all I have to show for it are a handful of mediocre SoundCloud uploads.
What’s regretful is that over these years I seem to have spent more time on chasing and learning music-making gear than on learning music-making. A lot of kit passed through my hands, but most of it I returned or sold due to guilt about not finishing music, and because creating robust workflows was too much effort compared to reading up on the latest groovebox.
A good analogy would be a painter who knows a whole lot about the abstract ideas around painting and the different brushes and paints available, but who rarely actually sits down to put said paints on canvas because the real process of painting is much more tedious and uncertain than imagining painting. The paint never responds how he thinks it would.
My recent attempt at a track remake revealed just how weak my sound design skills are and how unimaginative my attempts at crafting musical developments are. Luckily, I realize today that no amount of gear can solve the fundamental problem I have which is not actually knowing how to create interesting sounds and combine them into coherent compositions. So I know to look elsewhere for solutions.
Today all I have in my possession are:
- Ableton Live Suite 12
- Xfer Serum 2, LFO Tool
- Elektron Analog Four MKI
- Fender Telecaster
I am 20 years older and, hopefully, wiser. I’d like to give it another go. I want to do it better this time around. I’d like to not get sucked into gear hunting. I’d like to not quit out of frustration.
I want to start from scratch and unlearn a lot of the bad/lazy habits I’ve picked up. I need to develop a stronger understanding of sound and music and tenacity and focus and craft.
My goal is to consistently finish and release music. The quality of it is a secondary concern for now because I know that if I learn to finish I will be able to gradually improve quality over time.
If you were to walk back to the start line and give it another go, how would you do it better this time?