It’s a pretty lonely decision and most likely noone will notice, so I started this thread. Maybe some people can relate
I started out messing around with synthesizers and grooveboxes at the end of 2020 because for all my life I wanted to make some kind of music. I always thought I couldn’t do it. I thought that using grooveboxes could help me on my way to actually create music. And the Elektrons did! After a few months of trial and error, I realized that I actually had it in me. I’m able to do that. I can make music, it’s not for everybody and far from perfect but it’s there.
After that a period started where I really wanted to get validation for my music. Like get someone else to say that my music is good or whatever. Of course some people said so but it was never good enough for me. Uploading my albums to the streaming platforms made things even worse because there is so much music. And I make niche music, it’s highly unlikely that it will “explode” on Spotify. I always urged myself to create another album, get better and finally make it work. I’m just tired of making another album which will likely cost a lot of time and will reach only very few listeners.
Of course I was never happy with my albums. I liked some tracks but that’s about it. I just enjoy creating new stuff and I get a rush of uploading it to my YouTube channel to get a comment or two And that’s what I’m going to do from now on. Make stuff, upload it to my channel or post it here in the current sounds thread - which is the best place to post music anyway.
Just wanted to write a few words about it… Thanks for reading!
PS: On top of that, I also hated the concept of Spotify when it came out… I’m a music collector, a free software advocate and former software pirate - this doesn’t mix well.
PPS: This is not only about “success” but more about the mental burden of having your music in a very competitive environment.