It can be tough when the mind starts to take over and we convince ourselves of something that ultimately stops us creating. It’s hard to get going again, so congrats to you for pushing through that. It’s not easy.
Glad the video prompted you to find yourself again, and you are having fun once again. That’s awesome.
I’m not entirely sure how the Rytm and A4 compare, I’ve never used one myself, but sounds like you found a way, amazing.
I suffer from imposter syndrome, hyper vigilance and obviously anxiety, which is partly why i did a from scratch video to begin with, as i just have to perform the actions, and try to appreciate and feel during that.
I appreciate the message 
Practice, practice, practice.
I’ve just seen this thread pop up, and sharing here as maybe useful and relevant to this: