So I’ve more or less come to the conclusion that I got musician’s block (I don’t know if such a thing exists, but I’m very familiar with writer’s block, so I’m just gonna go ahead and call it that).
Currently, there is nothing in my setup that prevents me from doing great music. I don’t have much stuff, but the combination of stuff I do own, doesn’t block me in any reasonable way. I can’t warrant a single purchase anymore for the purpose of enabling me as a musician.
Instead, I’m realising I don’t really have a voice, when it comes to music making. Or rather, I’m not in touch with it.
One day, I’m drifting to space disco funk. The next day, I’m into ambient with a throbbing beat. Then comes another day, and I’m doing slow progression stuff, chords and textures, granular and such. And then I’m just sitting down and playing the piano and thinking, this is all I need.
I’m all over the place, basically. I’ve enjoyed that for some time, considering it part of the journey. To experiment, mix and blend.
But now I’m done with that. I want to get shit done. With some (vain) despair, I’m realising I don’t know who I am when it comes to making music. I know I’m capable, I know I can build tracks that people might will enjoy in the modest scale where I’m at, but what good is that gonna do me, when I got no idea where I’m going with this?
What’s your take on this? Do you find the relevance of sticking to a voice important or are you comfortable drifting between one thing to the next, from day to day? The more pro you are, I guess the more relevant it is to be consistent to some extent, but even if I have no such aspirations, it’s still frustrating.