Will possibly get back to you on the story bit, but one thing I felt I should comment on:
I don’t think you have anything to lose. The part about you enjoying yourself is what matters! Maybe your mindset is a bit similar to those of former pro athletes – it’s hard to practice ‘casually’ after being close to the top, in your case, a record deal. But enjoyment is the best thing that can be gained from, well, just about anything, but especially hobbies 
I’m sure you know all of this, but I’ve been wrestling with the issue myself lately - not that I was ever anything when it comes to music.