Thanks for this. I am in the process of being referred for a hearing test. Thankfully, I have not noticed any hearing loss in the 15 years I’ve been suffering this condition, however there MUST be at least a little. I will also push for a consultation with a specialist about hyperacusis specifically.
Definitely guilty of over-protecting my ears, which I suspect doesn’t actually help as you say. I haven’t put plugs in for a couple of weeks now, which is good for me. I’ve turned the volume right down when making music, yet the spectre of it triggering is there, I can feel it. However, it has made me realise that just because I suffer, it doesn’t mean I am causing further damage, which is a really important distinction, and the first time I’ve truly realised it in 15 years. It simply CAN’T be because of the incredibly moderate volumes I’m working at.
It’s therapy in itself just talking about it like this tbh. I have shed tears over this. The thing you love to do is causing you pain. I’m pretty amazed I’m the first person ever on this forum to start a thread about it. This is a common condition among musicians, particularly orchestral performers.
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