Same story for me, I went from ITB to hardware but then doubt several time about this move … I changed hard to soft and soft to hybrid with clocked machines to hard again …
But 6 month ago I started the guitar again and I felt free again ! Why ? Cause Ableton can’t replace the feeling that I have with the guitar, there is no story about sync or midi or recalling or overguitarbridge : just hit record and play, if I miss I retry. And suddently everything took its place. The instrument is used to compose, search idea, the daw to arrange and finish the track.
Why this is not possible with machine ? I think the main reason is Ableton or other DAW with VST are playing in the same territories than hardware machines or synthesizer. There is like a collapsing world between ITB and OTB possibilities and my mind can’t manage that.
Based on this experience, I will treat all my hardware exactly as a guitar, just play a lot with it and when I have an interesting idea : record in a DAW, arrange and finish it.