I feel you, I’m on the verge of putting some music out myself so this felt very timely and I’ve been having a lot of these same thoughts.
You might already know about it but there’s a thread here on elektronauts where people post their tunes and everyone in there is super supportive Current sounds coming from your gear (Part 3) - #19 by 7schlaf. Could be a good place to start. I’d also like to hear your stuff if you feel like sharing it here or in a dm, whichever you prefer