Maybe that’s the part you should work on 
It’s a path well worth considering.
my own path
I used to hate FM. I blame the 80’s.
After some tries on A4 I was not convinced, maybe intrigued at best.
Then I read a blog about it that was putting things very simply (check the Tao of FM synthesis), figured I liked some music heavily relying on FM, so I have looked for a simple FM synth to explore what this was all about, and right then the Digitone appeared.
Here are a few tricks: