I can see how @123alastairj sounds right because you’re making music I like, but it’s also about the other stuff you mentioned (raising a baby girl is important too), finding some kind of balance with your time and what you want to do with it. For me, I’ve had to learn to sometimes get out of the way of my own creativity. Right now, that has meant taking 20 steps back and sorting through old files and trying to streamline my workspace and workflow so it’s centered around the right gear.
Sometimes I want to do one thing and sometimes another: writing, electric or acoustic guitar, hardware synths, laptop, and more. Sometimes I want to pretend that I’m not creative at all and just go for walks or read books. So I don’t know what you should do, because I don’t even know what I should do, but I loved that piece of yours (“Predator”) for being an experiment that was somewhat generative, interesting, nuanced, complex, evolving, and that was also inspiring sound design, and my best guess is that the Cirklon will shape a lot of these decisions for you. (But that might just be me: If I went the Cirklon route and it was coming in about a month, I’d be trying to rearrange my workspace and workflow, geographically and psychologically, to do the coolest things I could with that sequencer. Instead, I have an OT arriving around then, so I’m off into that wilderness.)
You might want to pare it down to stuff that works well with the Cirklon, or you might want to put some gear away for three months to see if you are happier without it, or you might decided to part with a lot of stuff and maybe go in a new direction for a while. I’ve noticed a lot of Elektronauts describing how they sold things to start over, even if it meant rebuying something once they realized how much they had stayed the same or changed. If you’re anything like me, you think about patching and effects even when you’re not near the gear.
So I just wish you the best, because I thought “Predator” represented everything that I love about modular, even though I haven’t powered mine on in a week or two…and it’s too late for me tonight, even though I meant to.