I started in with making music as a kid probably around 10 or so. I got an electric guitar for Christmas the year that our housemate was dating a guy in a band. He showed me some real basics and handed me tapes of cool shit to listen to. Got me started on The Who, Clash, Public Enemy. Fast forward several years and ive switched to mostly playing drums after some encouragement from good friends. Ive been playing drumset ever since, for a bout 32 years. Id dabbled with a cracked copy of Cool Edit Pro and ReBirth on my friends computer back in college days, about 1999 or 2000, made some strange tunes. Played in Obnoxious bands during this pphase, a sort of noise rock meets free jazz improv with a healthy dose of butt rock, and also in a hip hop band (cringe), and lots of my college class mates musical projects and my own. Around this time i found out i was going to be a parent at 22 years old and kinda freaked the fuck out. I had dreams of being a session drummer/audio engineer…
these dreams got laid by the wayside and i buckled down in restaurants as it was fun, i could do it and getting hired in that game was pretty easy after a while.
Music came and went. Bandmate committed suicide and ended that project, among other things…
More time slid by. Sold my drumset to pay a gas bill at one point.
Then i got back into it real good. Met one of my musical soulmates, Paul, and strarted making heavy, psychedlic Doom sorta stuff. Heavily improvised but following a form. We clicked right away, he a true conduit fpor musical energy and i could follow right along, finishing each others musical thoughts.
started having inner ear issues in my left ear. Vertigo spells that disabled me for hours at a time. Loud noises made my head swim, and could make me feel dizzy and disoriented. Drumset and loud music had to take a break, and our band was kinda spinning our wheels real bad anyhow.
I quit smoking and used the mony o would have blown on cigarettes in one year and bout a Digitakt and a Tr-8, as id always wanted to get back into making music with machines. THis was about 2017 or so i believe. Its been a steady evolution since then, and im focusing a great deal on my keys playing now, as id really really love to get a whole lot better at it. a white key wanker, as someone up thread put it so well. I love those black keys! but its such a long way down when youre up there if you dont know how to land yet. Worst case its a wrong note, best case you break someones heart because its so beautiful… Im working at it, considering lessons on fact.
My influences are far and wide. I was heavily influenced by Miles Davis’s electric period back in my late teens. On the Corner broke my little brain, and ive always felt like that stuff, and Can, Tortoise, Dan the Automater, Q-Bert, BoC, Ninja tunes artists circa 2000, DJ Shadow, L.A Underground rap from early 2000’s, cLouddead and the Anticon dudes, Mr. Dibbs, far too many to list off, really…influenced and continue to influence my electronic music path.
Musically id like to be able to just hit flow state as quickly as fucking possible. I can get there very very quickly on drumset, and im getting better at getting there on the machines. Id like to be able to iinvite people into the room, so to speak, with my music. Id like to create a space and communicate what the vibe is in that space and have that point come across. I often like it dreamy yet edgy, with bent reflections. Im trying to get better with negative space and id like to get better at not using drums. i make a lot of music at night, but i can go all day too. My child is 24 and living on their own out there, my wife (not my childs mother) sings opera and is continuously working on her technique and getter better all the time. Our musical approached couldnt be more different: She strives at it like its an olympic sport while im just striving for oblivion/obliteration. If i can find flow state and just exist in the music while im making it, be it bad or amazing, or funny, or grating…then thats what i want. I want that.
So i work towards that. The making of the thing is the thing itself. the process never stops, there is no end. To do it is to do it again and again and again and again. Forever, as long as i can do it i will be doing it, in some way. maybe not music, maybe food, or writing, or organizing the woodpile. Finding the flow state iin all things that you can find it in is the goal i suppose. There are many paths though the destinatoin be the same.
Id love to release something on vinyl, even a 7". Something with my own music on it. I wish i could play music with Paul again but he passed away from cancer. Im gettng along on my own out here for a while now but honestly sometimes i feel kind of lost without him and i feel deeply, deeply sad about that. I cry all the damn time these days over people ive lost, and just the turning of the seasons in life.
Makes for good inspirtaion for music, i guess. How anyone can write convincing music about heartbreak while in their 20’s is beyond me. But, I digress…and i am sounding like some corny old kung fu master anyhow.
Im glad i found this place, here…kept me kinda sane during some ka-razy times. We are lucky to have it. Thanks for the thread @Fin25, youre a fuckin peach. Been a treat reading all these posts.